Day 137 - Irrational fears, originally uploaded by clarity25.

I have 2 irrational fears

1. I'm afraid of Sharks

2. I'm afraid of Spiders

These fears are entirely irrational. I have a better chance of getting hit by a bus crossing the street than being attacked by a shark or dying from a spiderbite. My rational side knows this.

But when I visit the aquarium and see the shark exhibit my heartbeat starts to race. Those jagged sharp teeth and the way the eyes seem to follow you as they slowly swim by. I get goosebumps. I can't even stand close to the glass. If there's a spider over my bed, I can NOT sleep under it. I'll refuse and Eric has to catch it and put it outside. One morning I woke up to the sight of a large spider crawling up my arm. I screamed on the top of my lungs and hugged myself trembling for 15 minutes afterwards.

The movie "Open Water" and the film "Jaws" gave me nightmares for weeks.

I guess most people have an irrational fear or two. A phobia that they can't seem to shake. It's a part of what makes us human. Those are mine. Embarrassing to admit, but true...

Question: Do you have an irrational fear? What is it?

(This snapshot was taken in front of a huge mural in the Tenderloin District. On the corner of Polk street.)

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:41 PM | 18 comments

Day 136 - Figuring things out, originally uploaded by clarity25.

Eric and I went out for a Happy Hour drink this afternoon and had a more serious talk.

We had to face the fact that our financial situation is pretty bad and we can't keep on this road. We wont survive.

One of us is going to have to get a higher paying job outside of the art field.

Even though Eric is willing to do it...I believe that it should be me.

I'm 5 years younger than Eric, It's not as big a deal for me to take a career detour for a year or two. Once Eric's client base expands I can afford go back to doing what I love. It's a temporary set back and it's worth it to me. I would hate to see Eric get stuck at a job he hates. It would be harder for him to leave and I don't see much room for growth in the company I'm in now anyway. They're paying me peanuts.

So it's official. I'm job hunting again...A better paying job is the only way we'll be able to pay off the student loans, hospital bills (You don't want to know how much last month's surgery cost) and credit cards. Otherwise it'll just follow us to our grave.

Life is filled with struggles, ups and downs. I love Eric and I know that we can go through anything together. These current money troubles are just another bump in the road that we'll overcome like everything else.

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:41 PM | 2 comments

I was inspired by This photo by littleone7 and decided it was time to go to the beach.

Eric and I walked down Hyde Street to Ghiradelli Square and went to the small beach area beside the pier.

Kids were splashing knee deep in the cold water and laughing, A street performer was singing "San Francisco (wear flowers in your hair)" by scott Mckenzie and strumming his guitar in front of the cable car turntable.

It's not warm enough to sport a bikini yet, but nice enough to dip your feet in the water and relax in the sun.

I laid back on the sand, while Eric started combing the beach for seashells. That's him in front of me examining a crab that washed up on the shore. That's the first thing he does whenever he goes to the beach.. searches for sealife, shells, rounded glass looking pebbles. It's so endearing and part of what I love about him. His endless curiosity and fascination with everything. It's contagious. I joined him after this shot was taken.

We climbed along the rocks leading towards Fort Mason, then sat on the edge of the steep hill overlooking the Golden Gate Bridge to watch the sunset.

Fisherman's Wharf area is so kitsch and touristy (a lot of locals avoid it all together) but I love it there. People come from all over the world to see the views and be a part of the San Francisco atmosphere. Sometimes you forget for moments how beautiful it is here and the tourists excitement remind me of how lucky I am to call this city home.

It was a perfect day, just the two of us. We left our worries, financial struggles, concerns..all of that at home and just relaxed.

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:40 PM | 1 comments

May 4th 2008

"America, This is our moment.."

That was the headline on the San Francisco Chronicle Newspaper this morning. When I saw it I was filled with happiness and hope! The whole city is brimming with it right now. You can find a lot of these images of Barak Obama spray stenciled on the streets around San Francisco, particularly around the lower haight area. Every Victorian bay window seems to be sporting a VOTE OBAMA sticker.

It feels like history is in the making and I can't help but feel excited about it.

The question a lot of people are asking now is:

Who is going to be his running mate and will it be Hilary Clinton?

What's your thoughts on that possibility? Dream team or do you not see that happening?

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:39 PM | 1 comments

“California tremblor of Magnitude 6.7 or higher is more than 99% certain, scientists say

The apartment I’m in living in today was destroyed by the fires of the 1906 Earthquake and rebuilt in 1908. ALL of Nob hill was flattened and reduced to ashes. It’s strange to see pictures of the street I live on after the earthquake. Desolate, bare, smoke-filled. The blurry black and white images show people searching through the rubble for a semblance of their old life.

When I watch news footage of the tragic horrific earthquake that recently happened in China, it’s scary to think I’m living in Earthquake country myself.

Everyone in San Francisco jokes about “The Big One”. The jokes are usually followed by a nervous laugh that fades to a momentary uncomfortable silence.

We know it’s coming.

Any time I feel a slight tremor, there’s a moment of fear. It kind of shoots down my spine and causes me to stop dead in my tracks. When it passes, I move on with a slight feeling of trepidation.. but within a minute it’s already forgotten.

It’s weird living on a ticking time bomb though. When you actually think about it…

I just read an article that ranks San Francisco number 4# on the list of the top five most dangerous places to live in the United States (In relation to potential natural disasters)

On the flip side of the coin… If you're curious, The 5 SAFEST U.S. cities to live in are..

1.Mesa, AZ
2.Milwaukee, WI
3.Cleveland, OH
4.El Paso, TX
5.Pheonix, AZ


Oddly enough..the knowledge that at any moment in the next 30 years a massive earthquake will strike this city does NOTmake me want to pack up my bags and move to Mesa, Arizona

I'm not going anywhere

It just makes me appreciate every day a little more and it's a reminder to not take a minute for granted.

Besides the scientists are only 99% certain, there’s always that 1% chance that everything will be fine.....;)

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:39 PM | 2 comments

Day 132 - on the roof, originally uploaded by clarity25.

The excitement of finally having a place of our own again hasn’t faded yet..

Eric and I love sitting up on the roof and looking over the town. During the warm days, we can sunbathe and the cooler days we just sketch the view. The basement of the building is like a labyrinth, filled with strange rooms, corridors and a door leading to an overgrown garden…

We’ve moved a lot in the past 4 years.. (Germany, New York, San Francisco) and I realized that our rent each time has increased while the size of our homes have decreased..

At some point it’s going to be time to buy a home but how do you even begin to afford that? I often wonder what other people our age are spending on rent each month and how many own a home already..

When I was 15 I imagined I would own a home by the time I turned 30.. But something tells me that this will not be the case.

But then again, I also thought I would have everything in life all figured out by the time I turned 25

Ha.

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:38 PM | 0 comments

Day 131 - Reading in the Garden, originally uploaded by clarity25.

This shot was taken in the Garden in the center court area of our apartment. It's quiet and hidden from the public view. A secret hidden garden that not many residents of this building ever visit or even seem to know about. I love how overgrown it is and quiet..

Lately I've been reading a lot of books about historic san francisco and taking walks around the city to view the old buildings. This city has the craziest history I've ever read about. I guess it's understandable considering most of the original residents were argonauts from all over the world that came here hunting for gold.

Right now I’m reading “Bones of Barbary Coast” by Daniel Hecht. My friend recommended it. It’s a little bit like “Davinci Code” meets “The Medium”. Strange book but really interesting…A Paranomal Private investigator comes to SF and starts researching the unusual bones from 1906 buried in the basement of a victorian home in Pacific Heights.

What are you reading right now?

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:37 PM | 1 comments

Day 130 - Morning Rituals, originally uploaded by clarity25.

7:30 A.M in the morning.

Our bathroom is small, there's no counterspace next to the sink so most of our toiletries are crammed into shelves behind the mirror. Our bathtub is dated with an odd showerhead. The toilet flushes slowly. There is a window with an old wooden frame over the toilet that creaks loudly when opened.

I love the bathroom though and the early morning rituals.

Now the mornings are relaxing and slow. Just the sound of the coffeemaker, the birds in the trees outside the windows and The wooden floors creaking under Eric's feet as he goes through his morning routine.

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:37 PM | 0 comments

129 - Petals, originally uploaded by clarity25.

Spring is fading, the petals are falling from the trees and Summer is arriving in the city

Summers in San Francisco tends to be foggy, usually clearing up by the mid afternoon and the fog moving back in the evenings. You can hear the fog horns from the ships passing under the Golden Gate bridge all over the city at night.

The wind from the bay can be really chilly. You can only wear short sleeve shirts for short intervals of time and you always have to carry a sweater wherever you go because the temperature can drop at any time.

Not many people (outside of the tourists) wear shorts in the summer. Since I moved to San Francisco I've worn jeans all year long. The Summers fade into Autumn, the autumn becomes Winter, Winter is Spring. It's all basically the same here.

This is a shot of me and Eric. Eric is on the top left handing me the petal, I'm on the bottom.

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:36 PM | 1 comments

Day 128 - Good times, bad times, originally uploaded by clarity25.

A lot has happened since my last photo update a few weeks ago.

I'll break it down into two categories. the good and the bad...

Bad:

Eric got sick

Eric developed a really bad inner ear infection and high fever. I had to take him to the ER (Yes, yet another trip to the Emergency Room -- Twice in one month!)

They gave him antibiotics and pain killers. They instructed me to monitor his recovery closely, check for fevers frequently and re-admit him to the hospital if it got worse. They feared that it was Mastoiditis and would require surgery. I was worried out of my mind...

Thankfully after 2 weeks, Eric is now 100% better.

Financial struggles

Rent, Bills, student loan payments, utilities, and purchasing everything for our new place (ie. Bed, Pots, pans, utensils,kitchen table).. We are just truly just barely hanging on.

Drama

Our former roommate, John is angry at us over our decision to move out of his apartment and get a place of our own. He threatened Eric the other night and He wants nothing to do with either of us at this point.

After everything we've been through together...It's horrible to see our friendship fall apart like this.

Although I'm still good friends Celine..She's married to John and doesn't want to be caught in the middle. This situation is difficult, upsetting and complex.

This is really not how I imagined things would turn out.

Now for... the GOOD:

We are all moved in and settled into our new flat.

Having our own place again is a dream come true. We started with nothing but a comforter + two pillows, suitcases and an office chair. Now we have almost everything we need. A futon, work desks, kitchen table, utensils, plates, bowls.. It took a while, but it's all fallen into place.

We've grown so much closer again and our marriage is resembling what it was before. although we're struggling. I couldn't be happier or more in love.

I'm entirely healed after my surgery last month.

and....We finally hooked up our internet! It's the cheapest service you could ever imagine and slow as a snail but it's a good temporary solution until we can afford a faster one. (It took 30 minutes to just download the last few pictures - You can click back to view them)

That sums up my last few weeks. Things could be better, but they can also be much worse. I'm trying not to see everything in black and white. I have to remind myself that everything happens for a reason.. The Bad times and the good times...

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:34 PM | 0 comments

Day 127 - How do I work this?, originally uploaded by clarity25.

Our apartment is a little dated.. as in from the early 1900's.

The intercom system has not been updated since then. So we have THIS thing next to the front door of our apartment..

The first time the faint ringer went off to signal that someone was outside the building, I was unsure what to do.

I picked up the little ear piece and fiddled with the switch on the buttom of the old fashioned phone thingie. I heard a faint crackling.. which seemed promising.

"Hello??"

I leaned over and spoke into the microphone thingie.

"Hello?"

Eric started laughing. I gave up and ran down the long narrow hallway to greet my friend at the front door of the building instead.

I guess the relic is pretty useless at this point. It's an interesting piece of history. An artifact from another Era.. I like to imagine what the original tenants looked like, what their story was. the family or person that lived here has probably long since passed away...

Question: Have you ever lived or do you currently live in an old building or house? What year was it built?

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:32 PM | 1 comments

I woke up this morning feeling slightly disoriented. I was tangled up in Eric's arms on a comforter and pillows on the floor. I could see the blurry image of an empty champagne bottle and 2 empty glasses turned sideways.

The Sunlight was coming in brightly from the open windows.. I could see the trees from the backyard and hear birds. (a sound I'm not really used to anymore.) I gazed around and our apartment was flooded with new light. For a second, I didn't even register where I was. It's so strange waking up in a new apartment for the first time.. especially an empty one.

The events from last night all came back to me. Unpacking the boxes, drinking the champagne, ..all the laughter, happiness and excitement of having a place of our own again. We ran around with barefeet, checking out the cupboards, drawers, lights... we danced and talked about how amazing this was until the early morning hours.

Even though my head was pounding, I had to smile.. I'm so incredibly happy right now. This is such a milestone for us.

Then I realized I was late for work because I had forgotten to set my alarm clock. I lept up and started searching for something to wear. I was running around in circles because I couldn't remember where I put everything and I didn't have an iron. I literally sprinted down california street.

While I was at work, Eric picked up the new futon from the craigslist ad. He had it all set up when I arrived home. It's so beautiful and I never thought I'd appreciate a futon as much as I do right now.

OUR FIRST OFFICIAL PIECE OF FURNITURE!

That's the two of us sitting on it this afternoon.

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:31 PM | 1 comments

Day 125 - We have the key!, originally uploaded by clarity25.

It's 9:30 P.M. I'm sitting on the hardwood floor of our new apartment typing this entry on my laptop. This area has so much free WIFI floating around from all the coffeeshops and bars. I'll be able to use that until our own service gets installed on Wednesday.

We received the key today!

The previous tenant was such a nice person. He left us his curtains his microwave, some cleaning supplies, toiletries, some spoons and cups. Then he wished us luck.

Believe it or not, we are all moved in.

This is because we have so little and we are basically starting over again from scratch. We left most of our belongings in my parents garage because they couldn't fit in John's already furnished apartment. We drove here to San Francisco a number of months ago with a few boxes, our clothing, 3 suitcases and a french easel. We have a coffeemaker and an office chair.

...and that's basically it.

Someone on Craigslist is getting rid of their futon and we'll be picking that up tomorrow. We have a comforter and pillows though. So...Tonight we'll be sleeping on the floor. Granted, it's not the most luxurious temporary arrangement but I'm so excited I really could care less.

We are on the bottom floor apartment, The windows are open. We can hear the clang of the california street cable car and fog horns in the distance tonight. Other than that.. it's so quiet. Just the sound of the hardwood creaking underneath our feet and Eric is unpacking some of our clothing into the hallway closet as I type this..

We have so little right now and our voice echoes when we talk in this little empty studio... but I couldn't be happier than I am right now.

This is it. This is the first night of our new beginning in our new place. In time this little home will fill up with the necessary furniture, pictures on the walls, books, plates, bowls, pots, pans.. piece by piece it's all going to come together.

We have a bottle of champage we're going to crack open soon and pour into two drinking glasses.

It still feels unreal, I'm in a slight daze. As though I'm going to pinch myself and find out that this is all a dream. there are so many thoughts rushing through my head.. This has all happened so fast and there's some loose strings that need to be tied up..For now I'll just enjoy this moment. Tomorrow is another day.

. You can click back one and see some of the pics I took of the flat. I'll post more as the place starts to come together.

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:31 PM | 0 comments

A place of our own, originally uploaded by clarity25.

Here are some pics of our new studio. Not greatest pictures, but it's a bunch of indoor night shots without flash. We only have one lamp and need to replace some of the lightbulbs tomorrow. so they're all a bit dark..

Picture one is the main room.

Picture two is a view from the other side of the main room. Door one leads to the kitchen, Door two leads to the hallway. There are two doors in the hallway. the first one goes to the walk in closet and the second is the front door.

You go around the bend and there's another hallway (with another closet), that hallway leads to the Bathroom. See picture Four. I probably would have to draw out a floor plan for this to really make sense. It's such a strange layout which is what I love most about this place.

Picture three is the built-in bookshelf, which I can't wait to fill up with books,movies and knicknacks. It's really cute and old fashioned. the inside of the drawers have contact paper with victorian style designs that must have remained preserved since the early 1900's.

This house is filled with built-in little nooks and cranny's to be discovered and 3 strange additional keys that the previous owner has no idea what to do with.

wait till you see the bizarre intercom system... It's obviously remained the same for the past 80 years at least. I'll post a pic of that tomorrow.

I know it doesn't seem like much, but for us.. it's PERFECT.

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:30 PM | 0 comments

Day 124 - A new beginning, originally uploaded by clarity25.

This morning we checked the voicemail on Eric's cellphone and received the following message

"My apologies for calling so late. We had a lot of applications to go through. This message is for Clarity and Eric Smith. All your referrals, your credit and background all checked out. My wife and I would love for you to be our new tenants. Please give me a call back at your earliest convenience and we'll make an appointment to sign the lease."

I can't remember the last time I felt SO ELATED! I covered my mouth, slid down the wall in shock and then started crying. It was tears of relief. It was tears from wanting something for so long, for struggling for so long and the insane relief when it actually works out the way we had hoped it would. It's overwhelming when you finally get that first break.. just at that moment when we were close to giving up.

Eric and I hugged eachother tightly. Then I started jumping up and down.

After a series of crushing disappointments and months of searching...It happened. It finally happened

and yes, It's 100% official!!

Eric and I now have cozy studio apartment of our very own

We just signed the lease 30 minutes ago and TOMORROW we will be getting the keys from the previous tenant.


It's a studio apartment right between Pacific Heights and Nobhill. I'm sure that anyone living in SF has an idea how hard it is to find affordable housing in this area. It's an old fashioned edwardian style 3 story home with about 12 other tenants on a tree-lined sunny street. It's $1050, (A steal.. believe it or not) It has a built in bookshelf, a walk in closet, full kitchen with room for a dining table + chairs, a bathroom down the hall with a bathtub. (this will be our first home with a true bathtub)

and it's only a five minute stroll down the hill from our roommates. So it'll be easy to visit regularly.

We've been putting aside money little by little over the past few months, and we can afford the deposit, first months rent now. all the working overtime and sacrifices have paid off.

I can't wait to get the keys and step inside our very own place tomorrow. It's small, yes.. but it's OURS and I couldn't be happier.

Thanks for all your good vibes and encouragement. You were right, eventually we would find that perfect place and we just did.

I still can't believe this!.. even while I type this...Now I have to sign off. Eric and I are heading out to walk by our new apartment and just stand in front of it to gaze at it like 2 big dorks.

But we're not just looking at the entrance to our new home, we're looking at a brand new beginning for both of us.

I will update again tomorrow with pics of the inside of our new apartment tomorrow! I just had to share the good news right away!

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:29 PM | 0 comments

Day 123 - Pain killer Cocktail, originally uploaded by clarity25.

It's now 5 days after the surgical procedure and I'm in more pain than I expected...

I was under the impression that I would have only one follow up appointment on Monday. They would give me the bandages and antibiotics I need to heal and send me merrily on my way.

I was wrong...

On Monday they opened up the bandage and took a look. The wound is deeper than I thought and there was unfortunately some more cutting involved. (ouch!!) I went again on Thursday and although it's healing up nicely, they are going to have to do another procedure NEXT TUESDAY to make sure it closes up evenly. It's a hole, so they can't just stitch it up like a regular wound. This procedure involves some sort of burning (?) and I was warned it would be painful.

"Be sure to take a heavy dose of your prescribed painkillers before the appointment. At least an hour in advance"

Wonderful. Could anybody who has experienced something like this give me a heads up on what they're referring to?? the nurse didn't seem to want to elaborate.

I will have to go to the hospital wound clinic two times a week for the next 4-6 weeks.

The doctor instructed me to take a few days off from work for bedrest, to avoid moving my arm as much as possible and not to carry anything heavy for a while.

So I've been off from work this week and resting in bed most of the time. I have a cocktail of Vicodin, Motrin, Naproxen, Aspirin and Acetometaphin. I have the doses measured out, so don't worry.. I'm not taking them all at once. I'm in pain, but not suicidal.

I'm feeling a little better tonight, ...it's good to know I'm slowly healing. I can move my arm again without the extreme pain under my arm. I have to take it easy, but I should be back on my feet entirely by next week.

But I'm NOT looking forward to receiving the hospital bill in the mail...

This is just an update on the ER visit and to let you know what's going on right now. I'm woozy, so now I just need to crawl into bed and get some sleep.

THANK YOU so much for all of your supportive, caring and kind get well wishes. It meant a lot to me and helped me get through this week. It's nice to be back. I've really missed you guys.

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:29 PM | 0 comments

It's been a while since I've updated here. Sorry for falling off of the face of the earth for a short while. It's due to the fact that our roommate, John removed internet access from the livingroom area and put it in his bedroom. I had no access to the web for a while. I've also been working full time and 12 hour days in my new job. The stress has been overwhelming.

But now I'm back and lets see if I can summarize the past few weeks.

The biggest event that happened to me occured this weekend.

This weekend was my 6 year wedding anniversary with Eric and we spent it in the EMERGENCY ROOM of the San Francisco general Hospital. I had minor surgery done.

It was quite possibly the most frightening experience of my life. It's not something I want to write about or revisit.. but it's kind of important. Maybe it will help prevent anyone else from going through what I did.

10 months ago I first noticed the small lump under my left arm pit.

I know this seems like the kind of thing I would write about here in my 365 days journal (since I've been documenting every aspect of my daily life), but to be honest.. I didn't think much of it. It was so small, like a tiny pea embedded deep under the skin and it didn't hurt. I thought it was a swollen lymp node. I was under the belief that a lump had to be in your breast for it to be dangerous.

5 months later, it grew to the size of a pebble. During my yearly breast exam my doctor felt it and observed that it was probably a cyst or a calcium deposit. She gave me a referral for a specialist which I never followed up on. I was in the middle of moving to San Francisco and I had just quit my job, so I didn't have health insurance at that point.

2 weeks ago, It started to hurt a bit. Just enough to cause discomfort and worry.

1 week ago it began to grow larger and become more painful but I was so busy with work I didn't want to take off any days so early into a new job. I'm still trying to make a good impression.

Then the fever and chills came. My entire arm was in pain and I couldn't raise it anymore. the whole area hurt so badly, I had to take 3 motrin every 6 hours to just get through work on Thursday and Friday. Eric started begging me to see a doctor, I told him "on the weekend, I promise.. I'm just in the middle of a big project!"

On Saturday, the pain was so extreme I started shaking. Eric rushed me to the San Francisco General Hospital.

It turns out my cyst was infected and leaking fluids inside the skin under my arm. It was almost at the point of rupturing which would have potentially led to blood poisoning. They did a lot of blood tests to count my white blood cells to see if it was cancer such as Hodgensons Lymphoma. I had a series of doctors examining me, At around midnight..they stuck an IV in my arm and started administering Morphine for the pain. It helped at first and that's when this picture was taken.

This was my first time in a hospital emergency room in a hospital gown, attached to an IV in a scary white room. At 2 A.M. I started crying because of the pain that had returned full force and an intense fear. I was a mess. Eric was holding my hand, and smoothing down my hair. They were concerned about my fever. I was hallucinating due to the morphine and thought the cookie monster was singing "C is for Cookie" at the foot of my bed. I believed he was my guide to take me to "the other side" In retrospect, I find that rather funny.

At 3 A.M., they used 7 big (extremely painful) needles to numb the area and cut me open while I was on a morphine drip. It's terrifying to be awake while surrounded by 5 different doctors, nurses, and attendees while they're slicing open your arm pit. There are no words to describe. I could feel what they were doing despite the numbing injections. Eric was squeezing my hand. Two nurses were holding my legs to insure I didn't move during the procedure.

After removing the entire cyst, they put antibiotic gauze in the area and gave me a prescription for Vicodin. They removed the IV and had me rest for an hour before I was allowed to leave the hospital room. I returned home and threw up until 7 A.M.

That was how we spent our 6 year wedding anniversary.

It is an anniversary we'll never forget. what I wont forget is how Eric held my hand the entire time, How he held me in his arms that morning while I trembled and cried in bed. His support, his love.. and it's weird how something as scary as this can make you realize how important you are to eachother as a couple. How deep your love is together.

What I learned from this experience is to never ignore a lump. any lump. EVER. If you have a cyst right now, even a benign cyst. I urge you to go to the doctor and have it aspirated. I didn't realize until this week that cysts could get abscessed, infected, rupture or cause life threatening health problems.

I'm healing now and I'm okay. 100% better. I should be back to complete health and healed within 2 weeks.

Despite this weekend's hospital drama.. I'm really doing okay and I have a feeling that things are going to only get better from this point on. Life is filled with ups and downs but that's what it's all about. The experience of getting where you want to be...This crazy ride...and what I realized this weekend is that I should never take a single minute of it for granted.

Life is short and right now, I feel very lucky and grateful that I'm still around to write about it.

Lots of Love, Clarity

Day 122 of 365 days

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:28 PM | 0 comments

Good news, originally uploaded by clarity25.

I applied for a job last week at a multi-media company in SOMA and crossed my fingers..

This morning I received a phone call from the company.

I got the job!

I nearly fell over backwards. After a series of disappointments and dashed hopes... this is a big deal for me. This job is the first step towards a new beginning. I'm so excited and nervous about the first day..

I start tomorrow.

I'll let you know how it goes.

NOTE: This picture was taken and the entry was written on March 1st. I haven't been able to update since then because this new job isn't a typical 9-5 job. It's been requiring extra overtime hours especially with all the training in the first week. I've been coming home exhausted and passing out.

I love it though. It's been a good week so far despite the stress of learning the ropes of a new job.

This weekend, I'll update more about my first day and update the pics for the rest of the week. Now I have to get dressed and run out the front door.

I just wanted to share the good news. Thanks for all your good vibes and encouragment! Things are really looking up right now. (Finally... I have to admit we were close to giving up all hope, packing up my bags and leaving San Francisco) Eric got another freelance art job too. So we're both feeling really happy this week.

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:28 PM | 0 comments
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