Day 137 - Irrational fears, originally uploaded by clarity25.

I have 2 irrational fears

1. I'm afraid of Sharks

2. I'm afraid of Spiders

These fears are entirely irrational. I have a better chance of getting hit by a bus crossing the street than being attacked by a shark or dying from a spiderbite. My rational side knows this.

But when I visit the aquarium and see the shark exhibit my heartbeat starts to race. Those jagged sharp teeth and the way the eyes seem to follow you as they slowly swim by. I get goosebumps. I can't even stand close to the glass. If there's a spider over my bed, I can NOT sleep under it. I'll refuse and Eric has to catch it and put it outside. One morning I woke up to the sight of a large spider crawling up my arm. I screamed on the top of my lungs and hugged myself trembling for 15 minutes afterwards.

The movie "Open Water" and the film "Jaws" gave me nightmares for weeks.

I guess most people have an irrational fear or two. A phobia that they can't seem to shake. It's a part of what makes us human. Those are mine. Embarrassing to admit, but true...

Question: Do you have an irrational fear? What is it?

(This snapshot was taken in front of a huge mural in the Tenderloin District. On the corner of Polk street.)

 
posted by Clarity: 365 days at 2:41 PM |


19 Comments:


At Friday, June 27, 2008, Blogger Nightmare 

failure. I have yet to have it happen on a grand scale, and THAT scares the shit outta me!

At Tuesday, July 01, 2008, Anonymous Anonymous 

I've got 2. Like you, spiders. I once moved out of my house for 4 days because a truly enormous vanished in the living room in the time it took for me to summon assitence. Micah couldn't find it anywhere and I moved out until it was discovered and removed. The other one is being sick or being around anyone who is being sick which is apparently more common than I originally thought but can be a major inconvenience at times.

At Tuesday, August 05, 2008, Blogger Kathleen 

Losing my job which being in automotive these days is always a possibility.

Sending you an e-mail shortly.

At Thursday, October 16, 2008, Blogger Nightmare 

I hope you're doing ok...let us know.

At Friday, October 31, 2008, Anonymous Anonymous 

Girl where are you?? You have never disapeared online so long before!

At Friday, November 07, 2008, Anonymous Anonymous 

I've been praying that you and Eric are doing well. I never thought that one day I would be worried about people I don't ever know; but I really am.

At Tuesday, December 23, 2008, Anonymous Anonymous 

So... I've been reading your blog (wherever it maybe in different places..) since 2003. You've given me the passwords... And I have to say that I am very concerned... because you've taken 'reality' breaks before... but NEVER this long. And never completely ignoring the super secret blog either... I'm worried. I hope that you are okay...

At Wednesday, December 24, 2008, Anonymous Anonymous 

Just wanted to drop you a quick line to wish you a very Merry Christmas and a happy, healthy and wealthy New Year. I hope you're doing ok - like Jessica I have been wondering how you're doing. Hope you're ok. Love and internet hugs, xxx

At Sunday, January 18, 2009, Blogger candoor 

so odd, for i thought i once saw the 365 days completed... somewhere else?... perhaps i should fear losing my mind, or memories... and perhaps i should not laugh at the possibility as this life moves along toward it's inevitable conclusion...

concern... and and i lost passwords when switching computers in a crash some time ago and realized how many connections i lost...

i hope all is as well as it can be and more important, that you are maintaining as positive a perspective as you possibly can - for as you know so well, perspective is everything (in case you need reminding)...

fear?... i am not sure how irrational this one is, but i always fear losing touch with someone simply because of distance or the precarious connections we have, like the internet connections we have, for instance...

so many people, some i've known well in physical life and some i've known well in words and some i've only admired and enjoyed from afar without much contact or interaction...

you've inspired me for most of this decade and i miss your inspirations, your insights, your creativity, your sensitivity, and the bits and depths of your life that you've shared so well over the years... and i miss feeling like i might be your friend...

fear?... i fear losing friends...

may you be loving life and creating wonders elsewhere in spaces i do not know of... and if times are tough, may you know my hand, ear, eyes, mind, and heart are open for you if i can help in any way... and may you find the joy in sharing your creativity that you once knew sometime soon...

ric
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At Saturday, January 31, 2009, Anonymous Anonymous 

Where are you? Are you both alright? Please just post a quick thing just to let me know x

At Wednesday, October 21, 2009, Blogger Unknown 

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At Tuesday, December 01, 2009, Anonymous Anonymous 

Wow. So basically for a year and half we have all been worried about you and now we see that you have three other accounts going on. Why couldn't you leave a word of where you were so that those of us who read you for years wouldn't worry. I think that's really lame.

At Monday, February 22, 2010, Blogger Unknown 

Hi Clarity,
I was going to email you but then realised I didn't have an email address so this is the only place I can leave a comment that you might pick up. I was doing my occasional check of your old Diaryland posting place and saw your last entry. Just wanted you to know that I'm thinking about you and your family and sending you much love from the UK. Please post somewhere to let us know that you're ok, xxxx

At Wednesday, October 20, 2010, Anonymous Vicola 

Hi Clarity,

There's no way to leave a comment on your Diaryland place so I'm leaving it here to let you know I'm still reading your entries and thinking of you. I'm glad your vacation brought you peace and I'm sorry your year has been so bad. If you want to find me, I'm now on http://vicola.wordpress.com

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My Blogger Reading List says "1 year ago" as if you updated a year ago. Another misleading blogger feature, like stats. Still, I hope you are well and happy and healthy and wise, simultaneously. :)



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